The end

I've come to the end of my road...for this year anyway. I won't be able to do my marathon this year, but there is always next year or the year after or the year after. It's just not possible the way I am right now.

I went for a long run last week on Sunday after waiting over a week from my previous long run that hadn't went that well. I felt fine until 12km when I realized I wouldn't be able to finish, again. My knees were both acting up and I'm just getting tired of having that happen a lot. So, I made a decision that I would "give up" for this year and try again another time when I can prepare better.

I figure I have at least a month of recovery from this continuous knee issue if I want to run without any pain. That puts me into August and the marathon is in September. So, even if I was able to get myself better, I couldn't build up enough distance in that time, assuming I didn't hurt myself again. So, maybe I'll try for the half, but maybe not. I'm not letting myself feel pressured into replacing this run with something else.

I will run a marathon, but it's not going to be in 2010. There are just some realities about me as a runner I have to face and come to terms with. I get knee problems every year but I was ok until I ran a race too fast. So, over winter I will start again. I'm going to keep myself at 10km every week and slowly build up over winter like I did last winter. It sucks, but it's how it is. I have to ask myself, do I want to run for the next 2 months or the rest of my life?

This will be my last blog for this year, but maybe I'll pick it up again in winter. It's crazy running outside in the snow. Thanks to everyone who has been reading this and I hope to write again sometime and say that I finally ran my marathon.